How am I going to do this?
Okay, so I changed my mind. Nash can NOT be part of my wedding. It would be a disaster. An epic mess. He would be thinking about Tess and I would just feel guilty instead of concentrating on what is supposed to be the happiest day of my life.
I don't want anything to ruin this. Antonio and I have fought so hard to get where we are. I know we could get married with Nash there...it's just that everything seems to be such a struggle. I would just like one day where Antonio and I could just be happy without any worries or struggles. That is what our wedding should be.
It's almost like Antonio was too generous for his own good. I guess I should be careful for what I wish for. Antonio can be so pig-headed, always wanting his own way, but the one time he really shows his gracious side, it's not working for me. I guess Nash has to be in the wedding--for Bree and Antonio's sake. I just don't know how I'm going to deal with this.
Jess, all you can do is enjoy yours and Antonio's wedding and just focus on your special day. Don't let Tess get the best of you and end up ruining your day. Fight with everything you've got. I know it was Tess talking when you said that you want to marry Nash when Antonio's name was meant to be said. Just be strong, and be there for your family! :-)
Posted by: Moriah McGlothin (OH) | October 23, 2006 at 08:54 PM
Jess, you have no business marrying anyone. You forgot who you were marrying at first and that is a VERY BAD SIGN!!!! You need to have a very serious talk with Rattonio and tell him what you told Nash AND THAT MEANS EVERYTHING, TELL HIM WORD FOR WORD WHAT YOU SAID!!!!! You love Nash and it is time that you admit to Rattonio. You are just settling for Ratonio and that is wrong of you b/c you know that you don't love him. Nash loves you and you love him. STOP THE WEDDING BEFORE YOU DESTROY RATTONIO!!!
Posted by: Kelly | October 23, 2006 at 09:28 PM
Okay, I was giddy today... You go to Nash instead of talking to your fiance about you being uncomfortable (telling)... You tell Nash that you are not a new person when he suggests you not marry anyone (didn't your doctor tell you that you in a sense would be a new person?) You in the heat of an argument state you are marrying NASH instead of Antonio (telling)... And Tonio being generous ? OH PLEASE... he was trying to stick it to that man... Please get your Tess memories back FULL and remember how Antonio treated YOU... And how Tess felt about him. I can't believe that all of those feelings just went away. But you are right, this is your wedding and you should have what you want. So maybe you should talk to your 'fiance' in stead of NASH... But loving any interaction I can get out of the two of you.
Posted by: Rhonda | October 24, 2006 at 05:20 AM
I feel for you Jess because I know you are going through a lot and just want to be happy BUT stop denying how you feel. You tell Antonio you are different because now you own the Tess side of you but then you tell Nash that your nothing like Tess. Not only are you like Tess you are her, she is a part of you and so are her feelings. You care about Nash more than you think and you'll realize it sooner or later!
Posted by: Andria | October 24, 2006 at 06:04 AM
I think Nash is right, you need to take your time before you marry anyone. The little slip, "when I marry Nash, I mean Antonio" just proves it. You have feelings for both of them and you are doing everyone a disservice by continuing in this farce with Antonio. In the end, everyone will be hurt by it. So, Tessica, take your time, know what you truly want, have no doubts, then choose.
Posted by: Verna | October 24, 2006 at 07:21 AM
I know why Antonio did it. He did it because of what RJ put him through with Jamie and he did not want to put another man through that. I don't think you and Antonio would be boring together because I am sure you two could find some excitement and excitement could very well be 'written' for you two somewhere in the future. (LOL!) Anyway, I hope the excitement does NOT have to do with some weird triangle they might form with you, Antonio and Nash either but with something else...also watch out for Spencer Lies-man and don't let him near your Grandpa Asa. Also watch David too if you ever get near him but remember, no matter what a sleeze he is too, he also got a Skanky deal just having a brother like Spencer. Spencer is the Real enemy right now...of the Buchannans (this includes you) and everyone who has wronged him. See, it's bigger than Who Should Marry the Integrated Jess.
Posted by: CarolinaJ. | October 24, 2006 at 08:26 AM
Your not the same Jessica that your family and antonio knows and loves. Your the whole jessica, its like they want to keep you in this little box of who your suppose to be and its not right or good for you. Everyone needs to realize that, because if they don't like all of you (the tess side) which is you too it just splintered from the whole, then they really don't know the real you and love all of you. I like both antonio and Nash but i'm leaning more to nash because i beleive he is starting to realize that truth. I believe he is going to love and recognize you for your true self, before anyone else will and you will choose him because of that. You really shouldnt suppress any of your emotions because it all comes and belongs to you. If you suppress it, it will only cause trouble and eventually blow up. I would suggest holding off the wedding, before you and antonio gets really hurt. Just give it some time to see if you really want to do this. I mean whats the hurry. You just can't fix everything in a day or week or month. I believe Antionio just wants to get you down the aile before antyhing else happens, i call that denial of the situation and not really thinking of you. He's just sticking it to Nash.
Posted by: Jess | October 24, 2006 at 09:36 AM
The sheer fact that you are so upset about Nash being in your wedding shows you shouldn't be getting married in the first place. If you have no romantic feelings for Nash, it shouldn't faze you to have him standing up there. As for Antonio, I'm not convinced he didn't have ulterior motives for asking Nash to be there. He admitted to Cris that he thinks he did it to show he "won".
Posted by: tigergal | October 24, 2006 at 12:39 PM
Hi jessica
How are you doing?
I know how you feel. And good luck at the wedding. I want you to know that you are so pretty. And i do know that you are a good person at heart. i really that atnio is a perfect for you. and try not to think about nash ok. And stay foccus on your wedding
Posted by: sarah payne | October 24, 2006 at 12:59 PM
You shouldn't be marrying anyone. You are a very confused person.
Posted by: Antoinette | October 24, 2006 at 04:30 PM
Are you sure it is more for Nash than you. Maybe you don't want him there because a part of you is beginning to have strong feelings for him and you are afraid that you will not be able to go through the wedding with Antonio if he is there. You need to decide what you really want before you get married. Make sure that you are not making a big mistake to get married if you are not ready.
Posted by: Stefanie | October 24, 2006 at 05:22 PM
When will this charade be over?? I know I'm not the only fan who sees the Jess and Antonio relationship is over....I can't wait for Nash to marry Jess/Tess....and watch the sparks fly between these two people...seldom have there been two characters more suited for each other than Nash and Jess/Tess....
Posted by: Sylvia | October 24, 2006 at 09:37 PM
you can do it. :)
Posted by: Breanna | October 25, 2006 at 03:31 AM
I think you are right I think nash should not bew in the wedding
Posted by: Mckenzie | October 25, 2006 at 03:36 AM
FORGET ANTONIO!!!!!
NASH! NASH! NASH!
You know the ONLY Reason you don't want him there at teh wedding, is because you love HIM, not Antonio. Just like that slip up....saying Nash instead of Antonio...
Posted by: 1luv4NASH | October 25, 2006 at 07:37 AM
I think that Jess should just let the wedding go on. Yes Nash may be a part of it, but who knows for sure if that is bad thing. I think she is trying to avoid what her heart is telling her. Maybe in the end she will marry Nash instead of Antonio.
Posted by: Jamie | October 25, 2006 at 08:51 AM
Jess~
I know that this must be hard on you. But just remember that you are the one in control now NOT Tess and this is your wedding not hers. Allow Nash to be in the wedding he has to know that it is really over and that you are your own person and Antonio is the one you want to spend the rest of your life with. I know that it is hard on you , but remember Antonio might be trying to befriend Nash for Bree's sake and yours. Tess is not a threat to you anymore sweetie, it is time you live your life how you want too and marry the man of your dreams, you are in control now!
Posted by: Ashley Frederick | October 25, 2006 at 09:52 AM
Jess- Enjoy your wedding day! Whether Nash is there or not isn't going to change the love that you are sharing with your friends and family. You and Antonio deserve to be happy and show everybody how happy you truly are. Maybe this will help Nash realize that Tess is not coming back to him and she is now a part of you. And you choose to be with the man you love .... Antonio. It may be good for everybody including your daughter if Nash is there and an active participant.
Posted by: chelle23 | October 25, 2006 at 02:29 PM
Jess, do you remember your Aunt Tina's wedding to Max and that Cord was in the wedding party, too? Her tongue slipped the wrong name during the vows. deja vue all over again?
Posted by: mamadee | October 26, 2006 at 05:18 AM
Jessica you don't want Nash at the wedding because you have very deep feelings for him.If you are so in love with Antonio haveing Nash at the wedding should not be a problem for you.Jessica stop running from the fact that you love nash.I just hope you don't see your love for him after you are married to Antonio because then it maybe to late.Jessica don't marry Antonio just yet it's to soon and you know that!you need more time...
Posted by: melissa Edwards | October 26, 2006 at 09:45 AM
Hi, Jess. I'm thinking maybe you're afraid of what you're feeling about Nash because now you have Tess' emotional memories. Perhaps you should tell Antonio sometime before the wedding day that you need some time to sort through your emotions, you know, get to know the person you are now. Not Jess or Tess but an evolution of what the two personalities would have been if that creep hadnt hurt you. I actually like the brass you've displayed lately.
Posted by: Adjorkor (Ah-'JO-KO) pronunciation | October 26, 2006 at 12:37 PM
Your feelings are so confused right now. You don;t know whou you love right now/ I say stop the wedding and get to Nash as your self and hopefully you will see Nash the way Tess does. He will love you with no conditions, unlike Atonio who always trys to controll you.
Posted by: Allyson | October 26, 2006 at 06:19 PM
with all the attention placed on nash. has anyone forgotten that christian and jess were together for along time. which would mean that jess has been to bed with everyone in her wedding party except her family. now that is very strange.
Posted by: aowenssr | October 27, 2006 at 11:30 AM
Yes, you and Antonio HAVE fought hard to be together. Hold on to that and don't let Nash ruin it. Antonio was gracious enough to ask Nash to be a part of the wedding....that shows how determined he is to make a future with you work. He has accepted that Nash is Bree's father...but that doesn't mean you have to be part of the deal!
Posted by: Candace | October 27, 2006 at 06:23 PM