One Life To Live: Split Reflections

I'm back

July 4, 2008

So Jessica still has this thing? I always used to get so irritated reading her ramblings. But she's quiet now, because I'm in charge.

Okay, yeah, so she hasn't updated this thing in a while. Because Nash is dead. She can't deal. She's inside. And I'm back to take care of things. And I need to.

I'm not going to let myself get sad. That's useless. Action works. Making that bitch Natalie and that idiot Jared pay...now that's what I need. That's what Nash deserves. No one will forget him. I won't let them.

Nash, baby, don't worry. Tess'll  make it all better. 

Happy birthday, baby Bree!

My little girl turns two years old today! This day couldn't be better. Jared helped Nash out of a sticky financial deal and saved the winery--who would've thunk, huh? And after the Buchanan shareholders meeting, Nash, Bree and I are going back to our lovely cottage to celebrate, just the three of us ... well, actually, four, but I haven't told Nash yet. He's going to be so surprised!

A day at home

I'm so glad we decided to stay home from Rex and Adriana's wedding. Poor Bree has a nasty ear infection and we've been so busy lately that a day at home is exactly what the Brennan clan needs. Nash has been working so hard on the winery's new label. I had to take a break from The Sun in order to help Nash and take care of Bree ... and I guess "age" must be catching up to me because the littlest thing makes me tired. I should probably go to the doctor and get checked out whenever I have a moment, but who knows when that will be? Anyway, I'm thankful for this day to do nothing but spend time with my sweetie and beautiful baby girl.

Start up

I don't know why I was worried about Nash's start up campaign for the winery. Everything is going well--I feel a little silly for being concerned in the first place. It's been so fun working with Cristian to get the right look for the new labels. I'm so glad Nash sees the artistry in Cris that I do. And how awesome is it that Sarah and Nash get along so well? When Nash first came around, my family was none too pleased with him, understandably since I was Tess some days, Jessica on others. So it really makes me happy to see any member of my family embrace him. I can't believe I was jealous even for a second!

I'm so proud of Nash. Today I was reminded that life really does move on ... seeing Jamie was a rare treat and I think I'm starting to make some progress with Carlotta. I know nothing can erase the past, but at least we have the future to shape.

Never mix friends with business

Grandpa always told me never to go into business with friends. At the time, I thought he was just being his ruthless corporate self, but I'm learning the hard way that he was right. Working with Cristian on the winery labels, while Sarah works closely with Nash is creating surprising tension--even in me! Cris is my good friend--we go back a long time, and Sarah is my cousin and Nash is the love of my life. There shouldn't be any tension or jealousy or awkwardness. Yet, Nash was all hot and bothered when I wanted to return to the police station to bail Cristian out. I'm only doing what any good friend would do, but he doesn't see it that way. Not that I'm not proud of Nash for making the winery into something bigger, because I really am, but I feel like this is yet another indication that he --and by some extension, me--are in over our heads. I almost long for the time when I was Tess in Napa with Nash, just he and me against the world, making our little wine together.